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My name is Madelyne Riley, welcome to my blog. Anorexic turned foodie, I'm here to champion eating disorder recovery and body positivity.  I'm having my cake, eating it too, then going back for seconds.  

Resolution I

Resolution I

One of my New Year’s Resolutions this year was what I called “No presents for myself January.” It doesn’t exactly roll off the tongue, but it gets the message across. My goal was to buy nothing for myself for the first month of the year; no clothes, no makeup, no shoes, no jewelry, no purses, no nothing. Well folks, I am very proud to tell you that I DID IT! I am way too proud of myself for this one because you guys, this was hard. I mean really, really, really hard. It was far more difficult than it should have been, and though I do enter February with a certain sense of pride, it comes with a new caution, because your girl just may have a serious shopping addiction. Shocker.

Working at Mall of America doesn’t help, passing those “extra 50%” off signs at Anthropology was no easy task, but I found that as long as I didn’t go inside, I could fairly easily pass it up. Once I saw the dress or the skirt or the hat or the shoes that were suuuuuch a good deal, that’s when I’d be in real trouble.

What wasn’t so easy was the store-wide 50% off sale at My Sister’s Closet. Yes that’s right, the entire store of beautiful vintage consignment treasures is on sale. It started just over a week ago, and it has been taunting me ever since. I actually had a dream about going to this sale. Yes, I dreamt about it! Not going was picking at me every single day.

There was also the gorgeous leopard-print jumpsuit at Banana Republic. We all know that the Instagram algorithm is scarily accurate at targeted advertising, and it popped that sucker right in the middle of my scroll. Yes, I clicked on it, and after seeing that it was $149, easily passed. Unfortunately it had already wormed its way into my brain, so I checked in on it through the month. After all, I do have a BR credit card and $60 in rewards to use. And wouldn’t you know it, on Wednesday Banana did a flash 40% off site-wide for Wednesday only, extra 10% off for card holders, and free shipping. After all that, I would have paid $20.46 for a $149 jumpsuit that just so happened to be one of the most fun and bad-ass pieces I’ve seen in a long time. That little bitch was in my cart, I had my card info ready to go, and my shipping info was set. Then in a beautiful moment of clarity, I saw that I was about to be defeated by a jumpsuit just two measly days before my month was up, and I couldn’t let that happen. I knew I would feel really disappointing in myself every time I wore it, and that I’d never be able to get rid of it because I essentially sacrificed the new 2019 version of myself with self-control in order to have it. So I closed my laptop. I know, I’m a hero.

I do need to do some work on myself, and figure out just what it is about acquiring possessions that I crave so much. Why is it that I am constantly hunting for more dresses? I’m excited to start researching the psychology behind materialism, maybe if I can figure out what’s happening on a chemical level, it will help me resist the urge to constantly acquire in the future.

I must say, I do like this whole “monthly resolutions” thing. Next month, I am not spending any money on food or drinks at Mall of America. No no no, this isn’t a boycott, it’s just where I work and you guys I spend soooooo much money on lunch and snacks and fancy new treats all the time. The only exception will be one tall coffee at Starbucks each morning. No lattes, no mochas, no mistos, no chais, but a small coffee is required to keep my brain on. Oh and also, I’m a gold member, so I do get free refills on coffee, and I’m not counting free refills against myself either. But besides that, I’m bringing in lunch every day, no other exceptions.

Wish me luck! And let me be very clear, I am going to My Sister’s Closed tonight. Polar Vortex or not, that sale goes through Sunday and I’m not about to miss another second of it.

Lucky Street

Lucky Street

Sushi Train

Sushi Train